SPREADING THE COLOR OF LIFE

Thursday, 6 October 2011

SOMETIMES  a sad feeling evokes so many thoughts in the mind.The emptiness of something or someone close to you draws strange lines of pain in me.
 I grew up in a locality ,where every family was close to each other-it was a compact society filled with its own colours,bounded by an unknown sense of respect and love for fellow residents.
I had gone abroad for studies and came back to my hometown after five years.For me those five years meant a lot,it changed me.Times had changed,and yeah five years is along time,but the love hadn't changed.
back then i had only one friend,and together we used to play,together we grew up seeing the times change,together we lived life.But maybe all good things do not remain forever.May be the gods grow jealous.
it was 9 in the morning,i had returned the previous day and had gone to meet my friend.I pressed the doorbell and waited,..........but who knew that wait would never end.No one answered the doorbell-i looked around and noticed the garden unkept,the doormat worn out .I looked towards the 2nd floor verandah ,from where rohit used to come out and answer my doorbell.No one came today.I walked out slowly,closing the gates behind me.I looked back once and saw the building,may be they were sleeping.I came back home a little depressed,and asked my mom if rohit and his family had gone anywhere.mom came out of the kitchen,with her head hung.Came upto me and ruffled my hair,and started in a slow voice"we didnt tell rohit died a few months back and his parents went off to live wih his aunt".she stopped abruptly and heaved a deep sigh.Couldn't believe her at first,but truth cannot be lied .
Everyday i used to stare at the buliding from my rooftop.It looked so meaningless without its residents-as though washing of the colors from a beautiful portrait.

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

LOST IN ME

                 I WAIT IN THE PARK OF MY LIFE
A leaf falls down
And stirs up my mind-
         a water drop dribbles on me
          and i wake up to the morning light
                  I WAIT IN THE PARK OF MY LIFE
                  EVEN AS THOUGH LIFE PASSES BY
Dreams are woven and broken too
Thoughts are spun and torn through.
            the day passes by and night comes upon
            the birds fly by back,crickets start crying.
                    I WAIT IN THE PARK OF MY LIFE
                    AS ALONE AS I COULD BE.
Knowing not what to do,neither how to be done.
I cry for help as though the world will stare.
             "dust thou art ,to dust thou returnest"
             said an old saying of this world.
              "lead the crowd and not thy follow it"
             said some great priest
Myths are made and stories are told
heroes are born and priests are heard about
                    I WAIT IN THE PARK OF MY LIFE
                    CRYING FOR HELP,BLEEDING OUT MY HEAR.
help me oh lord,oh please do help    
i dont how to live or when to die
                     TO BE A HERO OR FOLLOW THE CROWD
                      TO BE A PRIEST OR BE TAUGHT UPON.